My life's scorecard tells me I am my own worst enemy. No one has put me in worse situations, deceived me, torn me apart, sabotaged my progress, destroyed my confidence and self-esteem more than myself. Natural is to run, distract, numb, fight, deny, get away. I must stop trying to get away from myself. I must sit still and quiet with myself. All of me. The best and worse. I am both. To be face to face with the dragon's fiery breath as it attempts to overwhelm and wilt me with its inferno of toxic defeatism. Eventually it will tire and cool and grow quiet. I must wait for the rabid dog to stop foaming at the mouth and snapping, and try to pet it and soothe it. I have to love the toxic mimic of myself. The only way to bring my best self to the surface is to accept all of my selves. I must realize that if I feel only ugliness and pain, I will get just that in response.
A quote often misattributed to Einstein says,
"Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics."
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